Talking to Americans on the phone, the racism against the middle eastern peoples is rampant - one women said "our building is full of THEM" - and I guess if they are uneducated or brainwashed to the point of inability to make a sane decision on thier own, then it would be understandable. But most of the people I talk to are quite articulate and some even speak as if they come from breeding families. I don't understand how they can be so blind, hurt I can see, but blind is another story altogether.
1182 is the body count for dead americans in Iraq since George W declared "mission accomplished".
1319 is the total in Iraq since Mar.19 / 03. Do the math. Six times the causulties after the war.

Try the Dooley's yet? Get yourself to the LC and grab some of that for the holiday cheer. A carmel/toffee liquer made specifically for shooting or sipping out of a coffee mug or mixing into your morning coffee or licking it off a loved ones inner thigh. But not for lighting on fire (no flaming dooley's) and not for mixing with anything (it might just make a nice paralyzer or white russian but....naaaa) Drink this sucker straight outta the jar or shot glasses - which provided in the gift set by the way are ROUND bottomed - intensifying the whole experience as the shot glasses resemble a weeble, and rocks back and forth when they are inevitably dropped to the table at some point during the evening (or morning - whatever) festivities. Good stuff, drink lots. And I don't own a single share in the company.

20/20

got contacts, no glasses no more. Takes some gettin used to though. Crying like a little girl when i put them in, but it's better/wierder/clearer than before. gotta remember to wash my hands before puttin them in, especially as a smoker - got that nicotene going in the eye ball and it hurts like hell, thus the aforementioned crying like a little girl. Gotta quit smoking, really though, if thats what happens from just a finger tip of the chems, what is it doing to everything else inside, well at least I won't leave a four-eyed corpse!

skinny - lickin - 20/20

Hey, leave a message. What do you think? What bothers you?
Is it me? I really didn't do anything. Well then fine if thats the
way you feel about it then go, just go.

Work, work, work, work. Got a nice bonous of two unemployment checks in the mail yesterday, $852.00 for christmas. That'll make the holidays a little more festive. Add that tp the $320.00 wal mart gift card I won at work, and the 96 hour pay checks I'm getting and all of a sudden, things aren't so bleak. Still all messed up over buying gifts for christmas though. Just what to buy is the problem now, instead of how to buy. Guess things could be worse. I could still be at Stream! ha ha lol

You Want Bras With That?

So selling womens clothes over the phone turns out to not be as hard as one might think. They phone, they want clothes, you order it for them. Much easier than tech support for morons. When someone starts hymmin and hawwin at the start of a call, I know they'll be off my phone in under 5 minutes. Yes. Five (5) minutes. Where as with level 2 tech support for pissed off morons, as soon as I would hear the moaning on the other end, my stomach and bowels would freeze nearly solid, knowing I would be on the phone anywhere from 45 minutes to an hour with the whinning "whats a double click" person. So far I've had no problems with the transition, although the lack of stress at work is a very differnet situation from what I've been used to. And it's 95% women there. Heee Heee. Niiiice place to work.

Skinnylickingood

Where no man has gone before

I don't believe the human race will ever reach the summit on thier uphill climb and finally achieve the dream Gene Rodenberry had of life in the future. Imagine it for a moment. No war on planet Earth, friends with E.T's who are of different shape, color and language. Everybody pulling together for the good of the species and not for personal monetary gain. No nationalism, no more flag waving countries, no more dictators and fanatics.
Six hundred years from now, who the hell knows what could be happening to the human race. Technological advances in the last hundred years were so far reaching we can only expect there to be an exponential increase in discoverys in science and technology. Already we have some of the worlds richest men getting together to put privatized space craft into orbit (for commercial use, of course!) But when these guys decide there has to be a better way to do things like this, a cheaper way that is, technology will advance to supply it. Of course we would have deep space flights already if someone told the U.S government they had discovered an oil planet. There would be tankers and warships headed for the planet of black gold pretty damnquick.
But what is really standing in the way of any real sense of oneness in the human race is religion. "My religion is the one religion. I'm right and you're wrong, and if you disagree with me anymore, I will find you and kill you and all of your kind."
Religion. It belongs in peoples hearts and minds, not in our governments and schools. There are far too many differing races and religions in the public schools to satisfy everybodys rules and holidays. So what do we do, we take the catholic approach and the very same people who came to this country and stole it from the native inhabitants, escaping religious persecution in thier homelands, enforce thier own rules and regulations on the diverse masses in the new lands. In my hometown this year, Halloween was pushed ahead a day to Oct. 30, because it wouldn't be appropriate to celebrate it on a Sunday. But isn't the Jewish sabbath on Saturday? You cannot satisfy anybody without offending somebody else.
Anyway, the point is, we are not going to get any closer to the ideal future that awaits us ala "Star Trek" until we can all get together as one, either one religion or no religion, and without personal profit being the motivating factor in getting anything good acomplished on this little blue planet.
By the way, I'm not a star trek fan. I always though Star Wars was a more realistic fantasy world. Realistic fantasy world is a great oxymoron. Use it somewhere if you can. Watch this space for future ammendments.

In case you tried the link below for the travel web site and were as disapointed as I was (if possible) to find out that it dosent work, I've since upgraded the link so it should work now, without prompting for a username and password.
Or click here if you don't want to scroll down.
Here

questions

Who is the Nivea Soft girl? Why is that the only commercial I've ever seen her in?
Does the T.V season start later each year and finish sooner, or is it just me?
Why does a Baseball game, covered on only one major network, even a record setting come from behind win by the Sox, pre-empt programming on ALL other stations?
Only 60-some days left till Christmas - bet ya'll love to hear that!
Why is the cigarette habit the only thing I have a real problem dropping? No other booze or drugs have ever had this tight a grip on me, or done so much damage to both body and mind alike.
Why do I blog at 3:30 am when I should have been asleep long ago?
Is it too late to be asking such stupid questions?

- Sleepless in cyberspace -

the hotmail post - 250Mbs

So my hotmail account just leaped up to 250Mbs thats impressive, just when I was starting to hate the whole Microsoft corporation, they turn around and do this for me. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! I think they should send me a couple hundred dollars for mental anguish before they think for a second that we are anywhere close to even. Then they can might get me to try SP2, again. Puter wouldn't even boot properly after puttin that "update" on. Maybe I should try again, they might have gotten another patch fixed up for it. uuungh I still don't wanna do that again, though that couple hundred dollars would be a big glob of grease for the wheels.

So, everything still sucks

Here I am, it's after midnight, pissing down rain outside, and "the Chris Rock" HBO special is paused on the DVD player. It's halarious. Rent it, buy it, borrow it, what ever you have to do, if you don't mind lots of "F" words and even more "N" words it's well worth the hour and a half you'll spend in front of the T.V that night. Just put the kids to bed first!

Gonna get $400 to create, build and implement a web site for the mother in laws travel agency and I can't seem to get my ass in gear to finish the friggen thing! I need the cash like yesterday, bills are just-a-piling up now, but I have no direction to go with it. Got the obligatory cool flash intro built and hosted all ready at a free hosting site though - click here if your curious to see it
Travel Universal Flash intro
But that's about all I've really got. Trying to get some cool CSS effects down before I launch into something for the world to see and hopefully open up some more bussiness for the agency.
I have free reign on this project and I'm starting to think I may work better when there's a specific agenda to follow, something that I need to produce to / for someone's exacting standards. I wrote 2200 words the last two days for part 1 of a short story (which isn't looking too short right now, by the way), which has as much likelyhood of getting published or even placing in a literary contest as I do winning the lottery, but can't get a simple web design project up and running for cold hard cash. I looked at templates on the web and the free ones for the most part suck, but I wasn't enamored with the ones that cost money either. They looked atrocious and I couldn't see myself nabbing one (or paying for it) and passing it off as my own, even after I changed everything around and put my own pictures and modified the layout, it would still suck.
So I need a kick in the ass to get my creative juices (a little html and css juices wouldn't hurt either) flowing and soon. Anybody got any ideas on how to get this kinda project up and running, dropping a line or a reply would be great.
Till next time -

- Stuck between a Web and a hard place

Me.....a star?

Me....A Star!!

Well I could be! I think. I could do any one of those reality shows, really, how hard is it to pick up pigs hearts covered in blood with your teeth? Thats about the hardest thing I've seen on any of these shows yet. Or jump on a plane and "race" around the world? That survivor shit is the rough stuff though, not that I'm an asshole or anything like that, but I can't kiss ass enough (and I'm not pretty enough) to win a popularity contest like that. That bachelor sure has the easy ride though, dating and makin out with like 14 women, chosing which one he thinks will be the best in bed. And thats ONLY if he dosent get to test drive them before-hand. That would certainly make the decision easier, and a much more worthwhile study. I could do that job. Yeah, I could be star.

Just call me righty, or is it lefty?

It's been a while since I've actually written anything constructive here, but i don't see you updating your blog so get off my back!
Unemployement, (though in theory, not working is a dream of mine,) just isn't turning out the way I had hoped. Went to the beach one day, as is one of the most sought after activities of the unemployed, and it all turned to shit from there. Beautiful beach, hot sunshine, and huge waves, the likes of which I havent seen in years! An incredible day, but.........I tore a friggen muscle in my left shoulder while frolicking in the foamy surf. So, now, even if offered a job, I can't take it. At least not comfortably. I will not turn down work of course, but the amount of pills I'd have to be on to get through the day would render me virtually useless, but lots fun to be around!

Poetry Time:

My left arm, left arm
poor mangled apendage
sometimes it hurts me to type
I'll survive in the long run
but at this very moment
thank God i jerk off with my right

I am 81% evil.

Wow! I'm almost pure evil! Sin is my way of life. If there is a hell I have packed my bags for the trip.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

Signing on the dotted line....

I posted this on the message board for the stream group on the Hi5 friends network

I think the real reason for this pay cut is your run of the mill corporate greed and nothing more. The #1 CS site in the world can't demand a higher dollar value for THE BEST product?
They just know that most people really need that job even if it's less than the original starting wage. People with kids and houses can't just up and leave the island or that God forsaken building, and they know that in the end after all the fuss and muss that the ones that stay and accept the paycuts will be the ones who will accept it again when another contract has to be "negotiated at a comparitive competitive rate". And it will happen.
Once the suits see what they can get away with, they will want to get away with it even more. We'll be working for minimum wage before they're through keeping thier stock holders happy, and lining thier own pockets with raises for VP's and CEO's.
Don't feel bad for me, I have only 2 piddly bills to pay out of each check, and no dependants but for someone like Dan or Brad who just recently bought houses, this is a real kick in the cock.
The reason I'm not signing the paper is not a financial one, it a self respect issue with me. I've given 3 years of my life, (which in the long run is NOT that long), to that company, never said shit even when I was up to my eyeballs in it, worked 60 hours a week when it was required of me to meet business needs, was as bendy as the best and for all my dedication and time I'm NOT going to get my 25 cent raise this year? No, in fact I'm going back to square one, as if I didn't have any experience in this field, never taken a call, and never set foot in that building, thank you very much! They've wiped out 3 years of my life and made me finally see the truth. We don't matter! We never did!
The truth is people will sign, have signed or are signing now as I type this. Stream will remain open for business for a short time anyway. And the MTO concerns? Not a problem. With the people who do leave, or refuse to sign gone, it'll be a red Q where ever you are in that building, there will be half hour lunches and over time galore.
But not for me. As I said earlier it's a respect issue for me. If I'm not getting it from the company then I'll have to get it from my self.

yippie

I'm having a breakdown
I nearly screamed through the phone at a level 1 tech today
not that I thought she should know better, but answer a few
questions so i can get off to a running start with the customer.
As it was I was borderline, I never even talk at a normal level
on the phone with the mic so close to my mouth I don't have to,
so when i did raise my voice it seemed pretty loud, but hey
"I was doing the duplicate tile fix"
"so do they have an old account"
"no, I was told to"
"By who"
"A roamer"
again "Who?"
"are you going to take this call!!!"
"Send her through, just send her through!!!"

Fuck off and bite the brown spot! Bitch!

Well we got to keep our jobs so some people are pissed at that
maybe that was her problem, but I shouldn't be bleeding from the
mouth from biting my tongue. This is getting to be less and less like fun everyday.
I guess it actually is a JOB. Sucks to be me!

 
poetry corner:

Ice cold beer in fisted hand
shakey, wobbly, barely able to stand
one more hotdog from the mobile cart
retching and gagging is sure to start

piles of vomit, a multicolored array
I need new shoes, not tommorrow, today
If was able to speak, you know I would say
"Have yourself a blurry seaside daze!"

 

blah blah BLOG

Sunday, sunday sunday!!
Shot night, sandbar, pre-seaside daze kick off /warmup party, pictures at 11!
 
Short blog tonight, obviously going out to get shit faced again tonight. LOL
 
The reception to end all receptions, the mother of all receptions was held last night, and I had a ball, incredible how people can change so much about themselves (thier looks and what the do with themselves and where they live, blah blah blah) but are still basically the very same as you remember them from years before. Thats not necessarily a bad thing, it's fun to watch people in thier 30's act the same way they did when they were teenagers though.
 
Back to work, back on the phones, taken violently from training class at what amounts to gun point and put right back to the grind. This racket is a sad sad way to live. Not even sure if there will be a job there in a months time and we're still supposed to give 110% till we find out if we're getting pink slips. lol I should have went to university, wouldn't have to deal with any of this shit.
  
  
  
  
 

To blog or not to blog? That is the question I put forth from my steely throne, ensconsed in the warm embrace of velet pajamas, sipping on moonshine and bijou, smoking fat cigars, rolled on the virginal inner-thighs of young cuban women. Take the time to drop a line? Maybe you'll create a rhyme. And he did and he looked upon the rhyme and said "this is good stuff, have you had enough?" "Yes!!Yes yes!!" the thunderous reply echos from the balconies and rooftops of the inner sanctum. "No more suessian taunts from your razor-wheted wit." "Assault not those who have assaulted against you with more diatribes, and contritcities." And he looked down upon the masses huddled naked for warmth and fornication against a cold and cruel world and he agreed. "Yes, it is a glorious day!", then he adding rather curtly "I shall ride at dawn, prepare the women!" And he was gone, never to be heard from again in these parts. Poking around in Cuba, was his last rumoured siting, looking for virgin thighs and truth in advertising. He searches in vain, knowing all the time it is a hopeless quest. We're all pretty much fucked from day one, so who amongst us can put forth such a claim as ludicris as virginity? And yet he searches still.

Set up a tent tonight bigger than some of the apartments I've lived in, made by the people who make the swiss army knives, this thing is huge - 11 man 3 room with a porch 2 windows. Roughing it in style!

I guess everybody is going to have a Gmail account pretty soon, so many people adding me to thier gmail messenger accounts, and I've finally seen one of the ads which were causing all the privacy controversy at the launch time, and IT'S NOTHING AT ALL. Same as doing a google search and getting a side bar/frame on the right with a coupla links in it - all pertaining to the subject of the mail - and I had to subscribe to a mailing list in order for that to come through, none of my personal mail from contacts have contained any links to external sites at all. MSN/hotmail is going to try to catch up this fall with a 250MB free account.......so between my gig at google, 250 meg at hotmail and my new 100 meg at yahoo, I'll have more online storage than my first hard drive had. hehehe

Wrote a test today at work - OEM and OS - got 77/100. I can live with that. I'd love to do something differnet that this account, maybe even enough to stay here a while longer. 2-1/2 years is too long for that account, can't wait to switch it up to something a bit more interesting.

I'm not apologizing for the lack of updates to this blog anymore, I'm busy - get off my friggen back!

Skinnyblogalicious

Time off cut short

Well it's back to work, so maybe i will be bloggin a bit more than I thought. Life sucks. Same job, same client, same position, same wage. There's no adjustment period, but there's nothing new either.

Six weeks sounds like such a long time, but it's gonna fly by, the summer will be over and all 800 of us will be out of work and will have had no time to find new work, because we will be working!

Could be worse though, I could have kids to support or a mortgage to pay, as it is, it's not too hard to smile some of the time.

Well after the heartbreaking hockey game, I couldn't bear to blog again til now, nearly a month later. What a let down.uggghg

Sunny days are here again and I can't see myself doing much blogging over the next while, unless I really have something worth while to say, which is rare, espeacially over the summer months. Sun baked and beer addled, with guitar in hand of course, is how I want to spend the rest of my summer days. I may make some changes to the page, but I can't see there being very much to write.

HAVE A GOOD SUMMER